Today we cross the 8 month mark of Cargan coming into our
family. My heart is so full of so many emotions. There are times I still can
not believe he is really here and days when it feels like he has always been
here. God has used his coming to forever change us.
God has stretched me
and taught me so much about myself these past months. Things I really didn't want to know about myself. I have had to once again
surrender all expectations of what I thought would be and daily surrender
myself to Christ. Seeking each moment what he wants me to do to further His
kingdom. With homeschooling, daily life
as a mother and wife and 3-5 physical and occupational therapy appointments
each week I am learning to be still and savor each moment we have together. I
have enjoyed looking out the window watching my two boys play together in the
snow. I have seen the joy of creating something together between sister and
brother. I have heard tears, wailing and sorrow. I have heard laughter of three
precious children in my home. But the greatest thing I have ever experienced is
watching the love of our heavenly father pour out like a beam of light washing
over our child.
How God chose
Cargan, plucked him out of darkness so that he could hear, see and feel the
love of Christ just amazes me. Today when we were talking and I was snuggling
with Cargan, Peter asked him if he ever got hugs in China. He immediately answered
“never”. It almost shattered my heart.
To think this child had not ever been hugged in his seven years was to much for
me to fathom. As I write this am so
thankful that God chose me to be Cargan’s mother so I can hold him and hug him
every day. It has also amazed me how God has been revealing himself and his
love to him. Cargan was having a deep
conversation with Peter about God on Thursday and then came and shared with me
how in China
he was taught about other gods that are not real and loved them a little but
how now he knows about Jesus the one true God and He is changing his heart to
love him much. What great joy to watch God slowly transforming one life right
before our eyes. One, yes one. So many
would say in the overwhelming numbers of orphans, does it really matter.
YES!!! I can tell you with all my heart
it matters for this one and it may be for eternity. Many more are waiting to
hear and feel the love of Christ. Is God calling you surrender all for one????
This is one of the most powerful and direct sermons I
have heard on how we are orphans and have been adopted into God’s family and
what it really is like to adopt a child into an earthly family. It is long but so worth it. I challenge you
to watch it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTpS8ij06M8&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DkTpS8ij06M8&app=desktop
